LIES, LIES, AND MORE LIES!

According to the Bible, when was the first lie told? Who told it and what were the consequences of it?

If we look at Genesis 2:16-17 it says: 16 ADONAI, God, gave the person this order: "You may freely eat from every tree in the garden 17 except the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. You are not to eat from it, because on the day that you eat from it, it will become certain that you will die."

Ok so why do I quote that? Well go to Genesis 3:1-3

1 Now the serpent was more crafty than any wild animal which ADONAI, God, had made. He said to the woman, "Did God really say, 'You are not to eat from any tree in the garden'?" 2 The woman answered the serpent, "We may eat from the fruit of the trees of the garden, 3 but about the fruit of the tree in the middle of the garden God said, 'You are neither to eat from it nor touch it, or you will die.'"

Ok, I don't know where the 'touch it' part came from. But the serpent knew that that was not what God had said. He knew that she was lying. It was a lie or she was just adding on to what He had said. Either way the serpent (satan) had her. He was now able to manipulate her which led to what some would call 'The fall of man' More on that later.

Proverbs 30:6
Don't add anything to his words; or he will rebuke you, and you be found a liar.

Man has a real tendency to ass to or change or plain ole leave out what God had said or intended. Every time that you do add or leave out God's words or plans you are basically sending and invitation to Satan to reek havoc on your life! It does have a negative effect on your life whether you see it at the moment or not! We are to follow God's words. Now what we see mainly in the churches of today is not biblically correct. Most of what we see today is man-made traditions and customs. They are worldly. Who does this world belong too? You guessed it! Satan.

I had someone tell me...'I will worship Him with my heart and try not to get wrapped around the flag pole about why something started in the first place.' Ok that is all well and good that you worship in his heart but do we really want our kids to 'love us in their hearts and not give a damn about the rules and all the stuff we have taught them?'

Don't we as parents set things out for our kids out of love. To help them and guide them? It amazes me the more that I learn is the fact that of holiday's 'in the name of Christ' are nothing more than man made traditions. We don't here about the feasts and laws the God has set out for us.

Adonai, saved me from the brink of death about 6 years ago, literally. My life was hell. He took me from that and lately he is making me really examine who He is, what I have been taught, and to really unlearn all the man made garbage that had spewed onto my life. Am I perfect? Ha, ha, ha let me say 'no freakin way'! That is why I am sharing this and all that I have before. I need to share the truth that I am seeing to anyone and everyone. God is God of the Bible. Yeshua (Jesus) is the savior that followed the Torah and taught from the whole Tanakh. He is the reason for the NT. But I would love for all my christian friends and otherwise to really examine why you believe what you do and why you think that God has changed and doesn't expect much but 'worshipping from the heart' and that is it. Why do you not follow the teaching of the Torah etc. Where does it say in the bible ' oh you know disregard what I had to say in the 1st half of this book!' :)

If you aren't a christian or don't have any belief in GOd please comment and tell me why or tell me your beliefs. I am in this world to teach about the creator of this world. The God of Love. My Step-Grandpa died and had a funeral within the last 2 weeks. My step father was outraged because I guess the speaking that the 'father' did at the funeral was too I guess spiritual. This is coming from the same guy that said to my husband and I when we moved back to the state where he and my mom lived said' You know you need to find a good church to go to etc etc.' Well at his brother's funeral a couple years ago (he was murdered) the same pries, father,what ever they like to be called, his message had too much to do with salvation or so some of the family members commented. TOO MUCH ABOUT SALVATION!?!?!?!? SO at his father's funeral he didn't want to make people uncomfortable. WOW!! I don't know the exact verse but I will paraphrase when Yeshua (Jesus) says 'If you deny me in front of man, I will deny you in front of the father' I do know now and there are a lot more reasons too, that my step dad is not saved and like I asked my mom' If he were to die tomorrow, where would he go?' And that really has been weighing on me lately. I know so many family members and friends that don't know the answer to that. So I am asking you...... If you were to die tomorrow where would you go and why/how do you know this? Please comment on this with your answer and if you are unsure etc leave your email address or something and we will talk!

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How lucky am I?

I just wanted to post about how great it is to be a mom, teacher, and wife.... Here are my kids getting ready for the school day. My 4 year old is finishing up kindergarten. Today he did a few of his phonics worksheets and read me a couple pages out of his Clifford book.

My 3 year old demanded yesterday that she be in kindergarten now so I printed her out a phonics workbook. Today and yesterday she has written a-z and today she matched pictures with their beginning letter sound.

The 4 year old is cruising along still with his math and so is she! Oh wait we can't forget about my 1 year old. Yep, he is the one there getting ready to color! he has to copy them of course! I am so proud of them and so lucky that my husband takes the burden of financially taking care of us so I can stay home with the kids!!

So what am I?

So I was talking to my mom today and she read one of my blog posts and she asked me, 'so are you still doing that messianic Judaism thing?' And I told her well no I am just doing a Bible study. I started thinking, hmmm I guess if I have to put a label on it, what would it be?

I started out 'non-denomination christian' and had a ton of questions but never really outwardly questioned it just went along as I was told until I moved here. The town is tiny so it doesn't have a bunch of options as far as churches go and started going to a baptist church. I fell in love with the people at that church but that was the first time I ever went to a denominational church. The church also consisted of so many people that were totally different denominations. I then after listening to so many of the difference between different people it really got me thinking. I am not a kid any more and being the type of person that does question everything I figured I would dig in and since I got different answers from everyone I asked I just started reading for myself. I have come to the conclusion that all denominations pick and choose what they want to adhere to in the bible.

Yahweh (God) gave us the bible to follow, live by, learn from, and teach from. The WHOLE bible. If the Old Testament wasn't important why would God have given it? Why would Jesus have quoted it or learned it? Jesus (Yeshua) says in Matthew...

Don't think that I have come to abolish the Torah or the Prophets. I have come not to
abolish but to complete. Yes indeed! I tell you that until heaven and earth pass away,
not so much as a yud or a stroke will pass from the Torah- not until everything that
must happen has happened. So whoever disobeys the least of these mitzvot and teaches
others to do so will be called the least in the Kingdom of Heaven. But whoever obeys
them and so teaches will be called great in the Kingdom of Heaven (CJB).

Nowhere do we see in Matthew chs. 5-7 any kind
of explicit denial of the relevance and supernatural inspiration of the Tanach Scriptures. On the
contrary, now that the Messiah has arrived, their importance for guiding men and women of faith into greater holiness is only intensified.

So no I guess I am not a christian anymore, as most don't follow the torah and no I am not a Jew as I believe in Jesus. I am a person that believes in the whole bible and I am not worthy enough to pick and choose what I want to follow. Who am I to 'tell God' what I believe and don't believe or follow or not to?

What day to you?

How is that so many people claim to believe in the same thing yet at the same time they don't seem to believe the same at all? I am talking biblically of course. We as 'christians' etc claim to believe in the bible. There is only ONE Bible so why are there so many different beliefs when it comes to ONE book. Shouldn't we follow the bible as the words say or should we believe in the tradition passed down for years?

Why do we call the Sunday the Lord's day? Isn't that the Sabbath? If you go to Sunday church that is what they let on to believe. We shouldn't get the 2 mixed up. The 'Lord's Day' and the Sabbath (Shabbat in Hebrew) are 2 different things. Which one is Holy and commanded by God and the other is a man made tradition that has no relevance or mention of in the bible. SO I guess brings me to my point. Do we want to follow God or do we want to follow man?

What is the Sabbat? When did God declare the Sabbath? Why did he declare it and whom did he declare it to?

Sabbath means to cease, to stop, to desist. In the 2nd chapter of Genesis God blessed and made one day Holy. The Seventh day. Back in Jesus's day there wasn't names for any of the days of the week except Shabbat (Sabbath), the rest were numbered. 1st, 2nd, etc. Sabbath meaning cease because creation was finished. God set that day apart from the rest.

God declared it Holy at the beginning of creation.But when he declared it Holy who did he declare it to? Many people think that the Sabbath was directed toward Israel but that is simply untrue. There wasn't an Israel at that time, he declare it to all believers in God. v3 God blessed the 7th day and SEPARATED IT AS HOLY. That was a Saturday or more specifically from sundown Friday to sundown Saturday.

So if God declared this to be the Sabbath why do so many people believe Sunday is the true Sabbath or what most churches refer to as 'The Lord's Day'. It goes back to the 2nd century AD when gentiles started to abandon anything that seemed to be set apart for the Jewish people. and in the 4th century , the church officially abolished the Shabbat.

According to the ecumenical councils called together by Constantine in the middle of the 4th century they declared the sabbath to be a Jewish holy day in which the church should have no part.

So wait the Jewish people followed what God said at the beginning of time about the sabbath, what the bible declares. They decided it would be better to end that and start a new practice. That of which would be called the Lord's day and instead of it being on the 7th day AS GOD COMMANDED, they would change it to the first day. The day of the week that Jesus arose.

Check out the actual documents from the several meeting of the COUNCIL OF LAODICEA CANON #29 more specifically. Google it for more info. This is what it states.
Christians must not judaize by resting on the Sabbath, but must work on that day, rather honouring the Lord's Day; and, if they can, resting then as Christians. But if any shall be found to be judaizers, let them be anathema from Christ.

What was the 1st day anyway back then? It was already the standard day of meeting together to worship the most widely accepted, and politically correct, god of the Roman Empire, the Sun God. Hence, the name for Sunday. Thanks to the emperor of the time Constantine.

The Sabbath was given to us by God, later, said in the Bible to set us apart from NON-BELIEVERS. More to come later.

But I am asking you this. DO you follow God or Man? What day do you set apart as Holy and why do you use that day?? Being a believer is not easy. Being a believer also DOES NOT FOLLOW THE WAYS OF THE WORLD. Who do you follow and why? I would love to know! :)
Ezekiel 20:12
King James Bible
Moreover also I gave them my sabbaths, to be a sign between me and them, that they might know that I am the LORD that sanctify them.

What happened in the Beginning

My thoughts on the first chapter of THE BOOK!!!

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Ok we all know that, even my 3 and 4 year old know that and they will will finish it with a Genesis 1;1. Wasn't that the 1st day? That is what I had always come to believe. But what was created on the FIRST DAY? Light and darkness were created on the 1st day. So does that explain why the earth can date back longer than 'the first day'?

By counting generations the Earth would be about 6000 years old. So if that is true how does our earth date back much much further than that? Well the bible states that God created the heavens and the earth IN THE BEGINNING. Not the first day, just in the beginning and then it goes on to say 1:2The earth was unformed and void, darkness was on the face of the deep, and the Spirit of God hovered over the surface of the water. (cjb) So the 1st day was sometime later. The bible doesn't state how long the earth sat here until the creation of light and day.

So in the beginning God, lets stop right there. We hear of so many anymore, buddha, allah, krishna. But who is THE God? Are we all talking about the same one? You can only know the true God by his name and characteristics. The Hebrew word for God is Elohim. This is NOT God's name. Elohim is a title. Its is a plural title. This opens the door to so much. God is one, but he is many later grew the concept; the Father, Son, Holy Spirit. Whenever you see the the letters 'i-m' ending a Hebrew word, you know it is speaking of more than one. There is also another usage in Hebrew of the i-m ending. it's called the 'plural of majesty' it can also note greatness.

Why is there such a debate over when things happened in the bible? Like what day this or that took place? Jesus followed different calendar and times of when day started and ended for instance. That would explain the confusion of quite a few things. Like just an example when he died and rose again on the 3rd day. Does the new day start in the morning? No the biblical calendar goes as stated in Gen. 1:5 ......So there was evening, and there was morning, one day. so the biblical day started at sunset and ended at sunset.

So what was this light and darkness that He created on the first day? The sun and moon was not created until the 4th day. The Hebrew word for light is owr which means enlightenment. When the Bible says that God is light is says Elohim is light. Owr is associated with life and joy and good. Now in 1:14 there is an entirely different word there. It is meotor. That is where the meteor comes from and it means an object that emits light.

So on that 1st day He created illumination and enlightenment, a basic requirement for life. Darkness on the other hand, the word for that used is choshek, which means something that leads to death and destruction. So is the same light that he talks about in Revelation when He creates the new earth? THe hebrew word for night is layil which is used on the mention of the 4th day. Is this 'owr' the the light or Glory that is used to describe God throughout the whole bible?

The last point that sparked my interest is us being made in the image of GOd. What does that mean? It means that we have certain attributes that He has. Not all of well that would make us a God. Out of all the things that God created on this earth man is the only thing that can know God by the spirit. We are the only creatures with a spirit and it is our spirits that allow communion with the living God.

Yesterday's study.. What is the Torah.

The whole Bible was written by Hebrews surrounded by Hebrew culture and yet we have taken the Hebrew out of our 'Christian' religion.

So what is the Torah? I used to think it was the Jewish word for the OT. Well if fact, it is just the first 5 books of the bible. Over the years where the word Torah has been in the bible changed to law when in fact it means teachings. This happened when the bible was translated to Greek.

What came to be known as the OT Jesus called the Tanakh. T for Torah, N for Nevi'im (prophets), and K for K'tuvim (writings). You take those letters and add a couple vowels. Presto.

Have you heard of the Talmud? Well though that kind of intrigues me it is nothing more than religious commentary or tradition passed down through generations. There are 2 major competing versions of the Talmud: The Babylonian Talmud, and the Jerusalem Talmud. Although interesting, it isn't in the bible so therefore I don't pay it any mind.

The title of OT is purely man-made. As far as Jesus or anyone in the bible was concerned THAT WAS THE BIBLE. That was the very Bible that Jesus taught from. So when Jesus came, did he come to do away with the OT or Torah as so many people believe? Look at Matthew 5:17-19

Think not that I am come to destroy the law, or the prophets: I am not come to
destroy, but to fulfil. For verily I say unto you, Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or
one tittle shall in no wise pass from the law, till all be fulfilled. Whosoever therefore
shall break one of these least commandments, and shall teach men so, he shall be called
the least in the kingdom of heaven: but whosoever shall do and teach them, the same
shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven (KJV).

Or the same verse from the complete Jewish bible which is taken from the original Hebrew texts
when many versions today are taken from the Septuagint, which is a Greek translation of the Hebrew, done over 2 centuries before Christ.

Don't think that I have come to abolish the Torah or the Prophets. I have come not to
abolish but to complete. Yes indeed! I tell you that until heaven and earth pass away,
not so much as a yud or a stroke will pass from the Torah- not until everything that
must happen has happened. So whoever disobeys the least of these mitzvot and teaches
others to do so will be called the least in the Kingdom of Heaven. But whoever obeys
them and so teaches will be called great in the Kingdom of Heaven (CJB).

(Notice where the cjb says torah the kjv says law =D)

Ok getting off track, where was I? Oh yeah so Jesus says that he isn't here to do away with the law. He DID NOT come to do away with it but complete it. Your bible probably says fulfill it. The Greek is the word 'pleroo' check out a concordance and it means to fill up. to accomplish. But today in our English fulfill means that something has ended. But the true meaning to fulfill is to 'fill full' or 'fill up' So Christ came to fill full the Torah of meaning, or bring it to its fullest extent.

The 'OT and NT' work together, and the OT is the foundation of the Bible. SO How can we just think that since Christ came we can be done and that the Tanakh is just for 'stories and moral lessons'? Biblically speaking the word Scripture or Holy Scripture ONLY refers to what we call the OT.

The Torah as with all the Bible is literal. It means what it says, and says what it means. What literal means when dealing with the bible is just as in our own conversations, at times, we use sayings etc that only our common culture can understand. Like "I'll be a monkey's uncle." Now we know what that means but if you were saying that to someone that isn't from our culture they would think you were a nutcase. It's the same with many biblical Hebrew words and phrases. They carried a perfectly clear meaning at one time, but our ears today don't get it. Literal means the literal MEANING intended within the context of the culture it was created.

Well that's if for me for now.... I should get something done around the house. Please comment I would love to hear your thoughts.

Couch to 5k

Well I started the couch to 5k program the 30th and yesterday was my second day! Hmmmm I will be very interested to see if I can actually finish the 5k. I think I am getting old! Oh wait what am I talking about I have never been in shape! haha My knee feels old I guess. I hurt it years ago when this mean old lady rammed head first into it.

Now I wouldn't say mean old lady if it weren't true. Her name was Joan and she was the most crabby, depressing lady there. SHe liked me though and only me as the n/a. She was nicer to me then most but after weeks when I came back, no 'hi how ya doing' she said 'next time be more careful! hahaha That is funny because it was her that tripped on her way getting her meds and fell into my locked knee head first! You know I guess I shouldn't have been there getting her meds for her??? haha My knee broke her fall!!

Anyway doing the running thing I brought one of my pomeranians as my jogging buddy! Well he didn't make a great buddy because on the way back I had to carry him twice! I couldn't take one of the pits with me because she is in heat and he is nuts right now. Luckily I am getting him neutered Saturday so I can get my sweet dog back.

A Happy tale for the morning!

This picture doesn't do it justice. When I woke up is was a bit sunshiny but so so so windy! Then all of a sudden HUGE drops of rain started blowing sideways... I let the 2 small dogs out a bit earlier and started to wonder if they were going to blow away! So of course I heard the scratching at the door. Soon after that gigantic snowflakes and hail made their way through the area. Now aside from the wind it looks as though the sun may come out for a minute or two.
So Jon got home at 7:45 and went straight to bed since the kids were miraculously sleeping still. It is hard for him to do the night shift or at least get to sleep with 3 boisterous kids! I got up ans started to make breakfast. I made the kids lemon sprinkled oatmeal pancakes. Zack wanted 'lemonade' pancakes for breakfast today after yesterdays invented chocolate pancakes. They must have been good because I ended up with one and the kids each got 5!!! They actually ate them but it made them too full for the tea they begged for!

I haven't mentioned the full zoo we have either. Sammi has been watching me work with my dogs for the last few months and have been trying to train them too. they are pitbulls so they were too big for her to walk and she couldn't get them to listen to her. So after almost 3 months of trying so hard to train the dogs and and walk and train her stuffed dog we decided to get her a 'Sammi size' dog. She loves pomeranians or Pomerani-ooooo as she calls them. So after searching all the shelters etc I found a breeder on kijiji and more or less begged for a dog!=D She had a female she no longer wanted because she had such big litters a couple of them would be 'special needs' (she didn't get into the details). The girl had already had 2 litters and she turned 2 December 23rd. So on the 12th Natasha came to live with us. We changed her name to Sasha, and she is such a sweet dog. Typical breeding dog in terms of not knowing commands etc. But she is real smart and she is learning them great! The lady had asked me if I wanted to take another dog of hers after I told her I was in the process of becoming a dog trainer. She said that he had basically severe fear issues. Of course I said yes, I am a sucker and would love the challenge. So the 17th Happy came to live with us as a foster until I got him to be a normal dog. When we got Sasha for Sammi, Zack said he wanted a fish but after not having a dog to walk he wanted his own dog so I told him about Happy and that we would make him his dog.
Happy is such a beautiful dog. This picture was of the 1st day we got him. He was matted a crusty and gross. You should see him now, I spent an hour with him while I put him in the bathtub washing, cutting, brushing, and getting all the mats out of him. YOu should have seen the pile of hair in the garbage can! In less than 2 weeks though he is transforming into a great dog! He still has a long way to go but he went from a dog we had to pull out from under the bed, that you couldn't touch - into my little shadow that I can let outside all by himself and he will come back!

For the rest of the day I would love to just curl on the couch and watch movies since the weather is a real downer but can't do that! The kids are making their beds and cleaning the play room real quick so we can get them bathed and dressed to do school for the day and then go to town to check the mail etc.

Zack is getting real good at adding and subtracting. Sammi she at times is quicker than Zack! She will be doing her writing or whatever and then just but out the answer to Zack's math problem.
Last night we started reading the book Mrs. Piggle Wiggle. We only got through 11 pages last night because every time I said 'Mrs. Piggle Wiggle' Zack would start giggling. For our craft today part of it will be to make bookmarks for our books. The night before last we did the last experiment for the skeletal system in the magic school bus human body experiments. I believe we are on the muscular system now. Here they are leaning about ball and socket joints. They really love doing the human body poster. It is so fun do this stuff with them because they get so into it. They are getting really excited because we are seeing seedling appear on 2 of the 6 things we planted the other day. I am not sure where we are going to put these once they are ready to put outside but we'll figure it out!

They are loud and clear....

Wow I haven't blogged for a long time... And I figured I would this morning, I am sitting here with my own thoughts that are loud and clear. Hmmm.. Why are they so loud and clear? Oh yeah because about a week and a half ago I had a bit of a chest cold that turned into sinus and now has settled into my ear. So basically I can't hear much but myself.

I read yesterday to NOT EVER sleep on the side with the earache. The fluid will have nowhere to go except THROUGH the ear drum. This will cause a rupture in the drum which is very painful. Also, if this happens too many times, a person may develop a diminution of hearing because scar tissue will cover the hole created. This will cause the skin covering the drum to become thick, and therefore it won't be able to vibrate as effectively, which is how we hear.

Then it said to... The most effective way to safely get rid of an earache is simply to take a decongestant to open and/or dialate all of the passages in the head. Then you sleep on the OPPOSITE ear affected. The Eustachian Tube will open up, and sleeping on the opposite ear will allow the fluid to natually drain into the throat. (Be careful because sometimes the fluid could drain from one ear to the other this way, but it works 95% of the time.) If done properly, you will notice that most of the pain will disappear overnight.

Well this didn't work for me. My head feels more plugged up. But it did make sense in why I am so normally hard of hearing.

I read also about putting vicks on a cotton ball and putting it in your ear we will try that today along with making my own garlic oil. I know garlic oil works because it is natures antibiotic but I was just too lazy to make some.

Monday here in Kindergarten

Well I just got done with Zacks school work for the day. Well I guess he just got done.. :) He is 4 and in kindergarten. We are working on writing numbers and words, reading etc. He is very smart and catches on to everything. He just decides to do something one day. Like one day out of the blue he about 3 1/2 and writes a word on the chalk board. Amazing. I then asked his how to spell various 3 letter words and he could spell them!!

He could spell words but to read them was a different story. He could just sound out words but couldn't make the connection to what word he was reading... After he started reading, my name went from mom to mu-oh--mm. :) He has now been able to make the connection and figure out what words he is reading now!! It is amazing to see his mind doing all this!! I am soooo lucky to be able to homeschool.. I am bragging yes I know :) I just love to see the kids learn and things click with them it is just amazing!!! What mom doesn't love to see the little eyes light up everytime they figure out something new?

Please comment and tell me about your amaing little angels!!!

Gallbladder Issues...

Man I am frustrated.. Right after Zack was born I was in the hospital for Gallbladder issues.. The wanted to rip it out. This was from the same hospital that misdiagnosed a KIDNEY STONE for a year.

Yep one, well I guess huge kidney stone. I was hospitalized over and over for it. They did a laporoscopy one time and took out my appendix even thought the doctor said it was healthy and pink.. I remember the day the doctor found out that it was a kidney stone. He said 'huh, you have the same calcification that you did this time last year... It can't be a kidney stone though because you wouldn't be able to handle the pain.' Luckily a doctor that had 1/2 a brain came in and started chewing out my doctor saying that it was a kidney stone that I had to have surgery. The nurse after I had it removed said that that was the biggest one she has ever seen!! SO was I going to let these people take my Gallbladder too? Yeah I don't freaking think so...

I did however find out what a gallbladder was and what its function is... It breaks down fats etc. The more fats you eat the more pain I will be in etc. Of course I had gallbladder issues!! I actually listened when they said margerine was better than butter etc etc.. I LOVE BUTTER! But of course I listened to what the scientists were saying at the time about how butter was unhealthy. So I cooked with like a stick or so of MARGERINE all the time! I also loved 'bar food' anything fried up and greasy!! I used vegetable oil. It sounds healthy right?? :)

I remember what my answer was when the doc asked me what I had for breakfast. I had my gall bladder pain @ noon.. So I tell him, embarressed I mean I was 25 years old at the time 'Half a 1/2 gallon of double fudge brownie ice cream and pepsi.' So he says to me 'Do you know what a gallbladder is and why we have one?' hahaha...

Well I change around my diet. I read 'Natural cures they don't want you to know about' and 'The makers diet'. Both great books!! I learned so much and especially after the first book things started to make much more sense..

I moved to Idaho and was doing really good and then had another bought real bad. I ended up in the hospital, and they told me that I needed surgery real bad. Something about the bile going into the liver? I don't remember too much because the thing that stuck out in my mind was the fact that they made it sound like I was going to die with out surgery etc etc and then the nurse comes back and asks me what insurance I had. At that time I didn't have any and when I told the nurse that she said 'I will be right back' A few minutes later she came back with discharge papers and told me that because I didn't have insurance that I would have to call the hospital social worker to try to figure out a way to pay for the surgery that I so seperately needed. THANK YOU KOOTENAI MEDICAL CENTER IN COEUR D ALENE IDAHO! :) The surgery was $15,000 so yeah um that didn't happen. But they way they were talking I should be dead by now!

Anyway I went 3 1/2 years and now it is back.. :( I have been relaxed in my diet, at heart I am a junk food addict. Now I eat it and feel awful in more ones than one....
Upon looking into it I see the reason I am having issues.. I have never really cared for meat or its products but lately have been eating suff with hamburger, roasts, etc.

I did some reading this morning.. Cholesterol=gallstones, animal products=cholesterol. So now I have to get my gallbladder checked out to make sure everything is ok with it and my pancreas (scary) and obvously need to cut out more from my diet....